So, yeah...

I kind of blew that Josh guy off last night. Oh my god, I just realized how that sounded No, not like that. He asked if we were still going to hang out and I ditched. The Theater class had me really stressed out because I was in a new environment and I was literally forced to make eye contact which sent me into panic mode and the whole class was me basically trying not to have a full blown panic attack during it. So I was tired and I had a headache after class. I went home, took a hot bath, and sat on my bed doing homework all night. So I told him that I was stressed and it was probably better for us to plan a time and date to meet, because spur of the moment plans genuinely give me anxiety. So we're going to see The Imitation Game tonight. He asked if I wanted him to pick me up, but I don't want to lead him on and feel like this is a date, so I just told him I'd met him there. I mean, I like the guy, but I don't think I like him in that way and I don't want him to think that I do. I mean, I don't know what's going to happen down the road, but for now I'm more than happy to just be friends, because he's hella fucking cool and I could use friends.