How to Tutor When You're Going Blind

Actually a genuine concern for me right now. I have an eye condition where, basically, I have blood vessels behind my eyes that press on my retinas and make everything look distorted. It used to just be my left eye but it's starting to happen in my right eye. Reading has become really difficult, which sucks, because I have to do a ton of reading. But, I have an appointment next Wednesday, so I'll get shots in my eyes and it'll get better.

So yeah, reading has become genuinely difficult, but I refuse to let this stop me in any way. I want this degree too much to quit. I don't care how hard I have to try, I'll do all the damn reading I have to.

Anyways. So, as you know, I have a job tutoring as OSU Lima, where I go to school. There are some students that are required to come in for tutoring twice a week. When they do, we, the tutors, fill out a report so that the teachers and administration know that the students are coming in and meeting the requirements to pass the course. They need 22 appointments, so there's a tally by each students name in the database. It's the first week of the semester and I was putting in a report for one of my students. I noticed that they had two appointments already and I felt proud. Proud that my student already had more appointments than anyone else's. That made me realize two things. 1) I like knowing that I'm helping someone achieve their goals. Because even though some of these kids don't really want to be here, I'm helping them pass their class and improve their writing skills. I also realized that 2) I'm a cocky bastard and I love knowing that I'm 'beating' the other tutors.

But, I have homework and another student should be showing up for their appointment soon.

Duces

I got shot in the eye!

I did, though. Had to go the retina specialist again. They said I've improved even more, so that's good I suppose. He did tell me that he's not sure how much more improvement they'll see. I go back in five weeks and they said that if I'm doing alright then, then I'll probably not see them again for maybe two months. So I guess that's looking up.

Ok, this is hilarious. I have this class that's supposed to help us prepare for college and a career. Anyway, I have a lesson that was due last week. The name of it? Procrastination. That is comedy gold, people!

That's Unfortunate News...

Hey, guys. I got some bad news today, and I'm more than a bit upset.

Ok, backstory. About two months ago, Alan and I were playing around like we do and he elbowed me really hard in the eye. A few days later, I noticed that I had a black spot on the middle of my left eye that I couldn't see through. I figured that I just got his really hard and had a bruised retina or something. It got a bit better but mainly, just stayed as it was.

I went to my eye doctor today to get a new contact perscription and I told them about it. Long story short, I had to get a lot of photos of my eyes, then my mom had to come drive me to a retina specialist because my pupils were jacked up. There, I got three sets up super bright photos and, total, about ten series of eye drops.

I have ocular histoplasmosis. Basically, everyone as a child get exposed to airborne fungus and such, and sometimes that can lead to infections that leave scars on one's retina. Then it grows small, additional blood vessels, consequently trapping blood and fluids behind the eye.

So, that's what's up. Honestly, I started crying as soon as the doctor left me alone so I could call my mom. I was freaking out. I got a shot in my eye and I'm going back in about five weeks for another shot. That's the only treatment right now. It's not going to cure it completely, but it can maybe improve it a bit, or at least stop it from progressing any more.

What really freaks me out is that I have a huge chance of getting the same thing in my right eye. They said that no one actually goes completely blind from this, but it's still really fucking scary.

So, if you pray, I wouldn't mind you asking the man up top for some help. If you meditate, send good vibes this way. If you read this, hope I'll get this fucker taken care of. Thank you guys.