Why I don't watch porn anymore.

So, I like porn. I really do. I have a problem with the objectification and subjugation of women, but there is porn that doesn't treat women like that. And that's the kind of porn I watch, when I watch porn. I do have one big issue with porn, and that's how it makes me feel.

As someone who utterly hates her body, I don't like watching women, many of whom have my ideal body type, on camera. It makes me hate my body even more and I can't do it, I can't really bring myself to watch porn anymore. Like, I'm not even cool with watching it with my boyfriend, and it's not because I have a problem with porn itself, but when I watch porn, I compare my body to theirs and it makes me hate myself and it usually makes me end up crying.

I know it's stupid and weird, but that's why I don't watch porn anymore.

Time for me to be super arrogant.

because I'm going to brag for a moment because I'm proud of myself. Long story short, in my Potter class on Tuesday morning, we were discussing want loyalty and all the changing allegiance in the last book, and people were asking why Harry didn't get some one's wand every single time  he disarmed someone.

I thought about this and proposed the idea of intent. As Bellatrix said, you have to mean the unforgivable curses, and I think the same rule applies to every spell. If you disarm with the intent of taking away some one's power, dominating them, and making them vulnerable, then the wand will change allegiance. If, however, you disarm them from an academic standpoint (Dumbledor's Army practiced expelliarmus) or from the desire to protect yourself (The trio stunning Snape in PoA), then I think the wand will likely not change allegiance.

So, take that idea and couple it with the notion of wands being a phallic symbol, a symbol of power, domination, and subjugation of someone because of you. So, making someone vulnerable, taking their wand, their phallic symbol, without their consent, do you see where I'm taking this? I think an interesting analysis can done looking at spells, intent, consent, and the sexual/sexual assault parallels that can be drawn form it.

Anyway, I was torn between writing about that or writing about my self-harm analysis for my second paper, so I emailed my teacher. She said, and I quote, "while I suspect you would write the best paper about mental illnesses, I KNOW you would write the best paper about wands and intent. If you're conflicted, I would go with the wands."

So yeah, I came up with a cool theory and my teacher said I would write the best paper about it and I am happy.

An Editorial: By Me

http://www.infowars.com/7-harsh-realities-of-life-millennials-need-to-understand/

Okay, read this article first.

Then, read this:

1.       It’s not “my feelings” that you would be hurting if you mis-gendered me. Gender pronouns are a very basic thing and you’re literally just being a pile of shit. If I say that I want to be called “him”, fucking call me “him”. It’s not that hard. Respecting someone’s fucking existence and tip-toeing around their feelings are two separate things.

2.       Okay, I actually agree with this one. Mostly. Maybe someone who is “overweight anf unattractive” can be the quarterback’s prom date. That sentence is offensive as fuck. Just, really? However, I don’t actually know of a lot of parents who blindly supported their kids like this. It is correct that you cannot be whatever you want to be, because sometimes you simply lack certain skills. But there’s nothing wrong with having big dreams and working your ass off to achieve it.

3.       Yes, because getting a degree that can help you go into a career in counseling, historical study, or even law is so fucking useless. Also “learning how to be a professional victim”? Literally what the hell? That’s so degrading.

4.       Cool, does this include the 45 million Americans who live in poverty? Or the members of the LGBTQ community who are kicked out of their house and beaten because of their sexuality or gender identity? Thank God I live in America, where old white men are still trying to regulate my fucking vagina.

5.       Okay, true, but then maybe the government could pay people enough to like, buy healthcare and a fucking place to live? I mean, it’s just a thought.

6.       There’s a difference between “accept” and “respect”. True, you do not have to accept that I’m a queer as fuck, punk bitch who loves Bernie Sanders and dirty jokes, but I swear to fuck that you are going to respect my existence. Please, feel free to approach me and we can discuss our differing views, but you better not ever fucking degrade or demean my existence because of it. Freedom of speech does not mean that I can’t call you out for being a disrespectful human being.

7.       “safe space” is simply an area that does not tolerate violence, harassment, or hate speech, particularly towards LGBTQ members, but towards any group of people. By that logic, EVERY PLACE SHOULD BE A SAFE SPACE BECAUSE NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO GO OUT IN PUBLIC FEARING HARASSMENT AND VIOLENCE BECAUSE OF THEIR SEXUAL ORIENTATION.

As stated, if you disagree with me, please feel free to approach me and we can discuss it.

Harry and Ginny: The Nopest of Parings

I do not like the Harry/Ginny paring.

Not a bit.

Simply, I think it's too convenient. It's his best friend's sister, which is a terribly overdone trope, but I can let that slide. Or rather, I could, if there was any chemistry between them at all. I mean, the books show them together a lot, but before Half-Blood Prince, there's nothing but Ginny's twelve year-old obsession with him. It just comes out of nowhere. Now, book Ginny is a total bamf, but that doesn't mean she and Harry make a good couple.

And for the love of fuck, do not even get me started on the films. FUUUUUUUUCK. She literally feeds him a pie shit thing, the fuck? And then she bends down to tie his shoe?? What the actual fuck. Like, was that suggestive, since she was then at the perfect height to suck his dick? I don't get it. And then there's the kiss in the Room of Requirement and Harry's god awful horse lips.

Nope.

I'm out.