So, here's the skinny. Mom found my blog. I know, it doesn't sound like a big deal, but the only reason I had a blog was so that I could say things that I couldn't say to her or to my sisters. I needed a place where I could talk without being judged. Anyway, she found a post where I was whining about her and she got really angry. In retrospect, it wasn't a big deal, but I was angry at the time and I blogged about it and it was there and I got my feelings out without hurting her and I think that's an okay thing to do. So I got rid of the bog for a few days. I don't know if, even now, I want to keep it. I don't know if she's going to be reading it or not and if she is I can't say anything without putting everything through a filter, because the only reason I was able to speak so freely here was because people reading this may know what's happening to me, but they don't know ME. Does that make any sense? Plus, even if no one reads this, it was a great outlet, so I just don't know right now.
Other news. Uh. Um. Well. There's really nothing. It's been boring. I got a graduation dress, and earrings to match. It;s gorgeous and I can't wait to wear it. I'm ready to graduate but I don't think I'm ready to go to college. Like, do I really want to teach? What if I'm too stupid and I fail everything? What if I don't make any friends and I remain a weird friendless dork? Like, these are legitimate concerns, man.
Anyway, yeah. So, if I do keep posting, it might just be things that don't matter, in case mom is reading. I just really don't know right now.
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